Monday, December 15, 2008


It's so stressful to be afraid that someone else's mistakes will be waiting for you tomorrow. I hate not knowing. Not knowing what will happen, but having the unnerving feeling that I'm going to have to be the one to bear the brunt of... well, all of it. Even though it's not my fault.

I'm so anxious. I can't sleep.

I try so hard to build up good standing. I really do. And it keeps getting undone by someone else. I understand what is going on, and I sympathize, but it's still not okay. I'm exhausted and it continues to get worse.

Melodrama. I don't care. Melodrama is what it feels like.

I'm nervous and uneasy. I feel sick.