Hard

It's been a long time since I prayed so hard.

How heartbreaking it was. It hurts to watch a Most Loved go through such pain. And she is so incredibly unselfish, upright, honest, serving of others before herself... and yet her life is filled with the deepest aches and tears. When will she find relief? Will she ever be free from such loneliness and frustration? Her heart is so dear, so earnest, so honorable. How beautiful a person, she is.

I don't understand.