It is finished. I'm still processing it. It really is bitter-sweet. I cried several times watching beloved students perform with their brilliantly creative instructors supporting them from the stage wings. I was so proud of our students and so proud of our teachers. I stood there and remembered why I've worked so hard these past years. I remembered why it is all worth it, even now.
There's so much I feel is left undone. I don't work there anymore, but I feel the need to tie up loose ends. Probably because everything was so rushed at the end. I didn't really turn over projects to my successors. That will come on a Saturday when there aren't students there. It just feels like a "..." ending.
The hardest part was that feeling that I was saying goodbye during my last week and a half there, but no one knew about it. Since I was offered the job a mere week and a half before the recitals, my boss thought it best to make it through the show without alarming everyone. I understood. Breaking everyone's concentration with bad news right before the show would be unfair to them and all their hard work.
A special letter has gone out to all the instructors and Apphia is throwing me a Going Away party next week with all of them. I have composed another e-mail to all the families, but this is where I am feeling a distinct lack of closure. My last day of work was the recitals, so by the time they hear I'm leaving, I'll be gone. The next time I see them again, I'll be a visitor. It all feels very strange.
Meanwhile, I need to get my act together as I begin my new job on Monday (and that is exciting... and a little scary).
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